A source has said that worried shrinks think that Simon is 'losing it' over having to make a decision about X-Factor panel on both US and UK shows. Apparently Cowell has had terrible migraines and is in a hell of indecision. Medics are worried that Cowell could be having a mental meltdown which is effecting his decision making ability.
Simon says he has had sleepless nights over which judges to choose for the US and UK X-Factor Judges Panels.
He said sometimes after 'agonising' over a decision for days he wakes up during the night in a cold sweat realising he has made the 'wrong' decision.
The US television producers sometimes phone Simon at three in the morning saying they do not agree which a decision which earlier has been made.
"You've got to imagine that you're having a dinner party and it's a very, very long dinner party and who you could bear to spend that much time with.
"Because if you haven't got chemistry or if you can't work together, it is total, utter misery."
Poor Simon says that he wanted a completely 'new' panel on UK X-Factor but ITV bosses said that this would lose them viewers. So Louis and Dannii will be coming back as judges but the identity of the other two judges still remains a 'mystery'.
He has said that he regrets that Cheryl will not be on the US X-Factor panel but he had been 'outvoted' by other people on the committee.
He said that if the US X-Factor 'bombs' he will not make another series of the show.
Cowell has a look of a 'dead man walking' and has come to 'hate' the X-Factor which he believes is ruining his life.
He said, "I have created a monster and I am in misery. Sometimes I just want to vanish into obscurity and not have this 'albatross around my neck'.
Cowell has tried to 'sugar coat' Cheryl's bitter 'pill of disappointment' at losing out on the US X-Factor gig by offering her a 'Sinitta' 'non' job behind the scenes; but the angry lass head-butted him and has reverted back to her tough council estate persona.
